OPENER / ANDREW TUCK
For the record
We are making an episode of our podcast The Urbanist about London to mark one year since we went into full lockdown, on 20 March 2020. In a completely vainglorious move, it’s going to be based on these columns and the personal diary that I diligently write every day. The show will be one (hopefully reliable) witness’s take on how the city has fared, from the shuttering of shops to the blossoming of community spirit, via the sourdough boom and industrious mice who moved into Midori House in our absence.
Making the programme has required me to read through my diaries from the past year and, while I thought I knew the shifts of the coronavirus story pretty well, it’s strange how much I had actually forgotten. The unease started much earlier than I remembered – the closing down of the city began well ahead of government announcements to stay home – and how complete and strange the silence was when the lockdown first took hold. I knew that I had recorded the scary death tolls and the twists in the political saga but I seem to have been just as obsessed with that blanket of quiet, the endless spring heat.
Writing a diary is a strange commitment because it’s hard to explain precisely why you do it. Sure, if you are a politician hoping to make a buck on retirement with the inside scoop then it pays to get the dirt down on paper; or if your love life could be the basis of some steamy page-turner then indiscretions need noting. But for most people the habit bites for harder-to-define reasons. For some it’s therapeutic; for others it’s an aide memoire to be reread again and again. For me it’s about organising thoughts: slowly, over the days, you draw lines between dots and give shape to things that seem to be unending and hard to fathom. It’s good to get the funny stuff down too.
And yes, perhaps I will need that aide memoire in the future because memory, for most people, is patchy and not the quickest of retrieval devices. Tyler Brûlé – you know, the fine gentleman who occupies this spot tomorrow – has impeccable recall for names and details. Sometimes he will have a rare blank and ask me about someone we met at an event a decade ago and, as I reach for my phone to see if Google will come to my rescue, he’ll insist that I desist. “Come on, we need to remember this.” Occasionally from the murk a name will rise to the surface – well, for him anyway.
My partner is even more annoying. You can say, “Where were we in May 2007?” and he’ll say, “Well, that’s easy, because that’s the year we moved house in the February and I remember that in the May we had to go and collect a new dining table and on the way we stopped for lunch at a pub and I ordered the chicken and the waiter was wearing this funny shirt and he said…” At moments like this I think of him less as a partner, more as cloud storage paid for with the occasional glass of champagne. But I am now backing him up on paper in case he runs off with a younger model.
Going back through a year of sometimes banal, sometimes amusing, sometimes slightly stressed diary entries, I have also been struck by how much we have been through – some of it has been pretty unrelenting. There has been so much news, so many false moves and triumphs too, that it’s not surprising that it’s too much to recall all the twists in this tale.
But, for all sorts of reasons, we do need to remember this past year. Not least because it will continue to shape us for many more to come. And that’s why a small pile of pocketbooks have provided some solace this week (well, when I can make out my own handwriting). It might take some effort but diary-writing is a habit worth encouraging. It may make no sense at the time but it will help you make sense of time.